Good morning. I hope that I can sleep better tonight. My brain wouldnt shut off and I randomly got a bunch of mean yelling text messages from my ex..
Somehow this SS2010 has a lot to do with both mine and Nikki's Ex's.. In my case , I woke up from a five month nap. Avoiding things was wrong and destructive. All I get now is anger and impatience from the person that was always loving and forgiving. I was not honest. Its my own fault.
Jealousy and panic consumes me . I can't help but want to try to get my my baby daddy back even though I made so many wrong choices to make things near impossible to fix.
I cant understand why I feel that way.
I need this time to decide what I want. How could I not care about someone enough to push them away for months and now realise I made a mistake..
There is a kid involved... I love him so much . We had a family .
I am going to get a job today. I have a plan of action but its not good enough. Nothing feels good enough. I havent felt right in months.
I thought I was a good person. I dont like questioning myself.
I have four months to prove to myself I know what I want and I love myself again.
-Dottie
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Sweetie, you have more than four months. You have the rest of your life to love yourself.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad we're working on this together.
-Cara
When Cara Mia mentioned this blog I thought to myself... crazy! Must be something in the air. Just last week I made some choices that will allow me to really take a look at things I need to improve and also figure out what I really want in every aspect of my life. "Happy" is something we all want and quite frankly, it's something that has to happen starting with you. Anyway, I'm glad to see you gals doing this! You seem to be putting my thoughts into words as well. Just remember you're not alone:-) Good luck with your venture!!! xoxo Ellie Darling
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ReplyDeleteIt's amazing to hear all the personal reactions to this blog, and this summer plan. Mostly though, a lot of my friends are doing something along these lines. Its funny that we all go through a lot of similarities but we don't talk about them, so we don't know. I'm glad to know that we aren't alone. I'm excited to see how this all pans out in the long run.
xoCaraMia