Day 34-One Single Diamond

Well.... I can say I am stilllllllll single!

I have to confess that I slipped up and made out with a guy... Cuddling doesnt work or at least for me at this time in my life. My will is not strong enough. I really am just a girl... I am learning from my mistakes. Making that kind of contact only makes healing and understanding myself take longer and become more confusing . But I obviously feel it was worth it...
Plus , I am a grown up and can make my own choices. The point of all this is not rushing into a relationship and making the best choices while learning about my behaviors.

I have been dealing with THE HARDEST times.. My 7 year old boy has some sickness that is unknown. Strange redness on his skin almost a rash but not . Have had to go the the ER and the hospital for bloodwork, xrays and biopsy .. It could be very serious or it could run its course. . They are unsure. He has a hard time walking.. I have been carrying him and pushing him in a wheel chair..
He doesnt deserve to go through this... The guilt of the break up just weighs me down more. I wish I was there like I was before at this crucial time...my baby... ugh..

well, One day at a time...

First things first though...