Day 57- for Diamond

So Today I went to the clinic to get the whole sha-bang of STD testing..
Yeah I know how AWKWARD and PERSONAL to write about! But it seems like no one talks about this routine method...
I want to make sure that when I decide to be with someone I will be able to say truthfully I know for a fact I am clean as a whistle .

I feel naive to the whole part of worrying about those things. I was with someone 6 years and married then on to a 4 year relationship.. Now I live single in Portland , Oregon . Ummmmm yeah ... I think we all know how much Portland LOVES sex.. dont we all.. but really?....how many people actually get tested ?!

All I know is I am even more apprehensive about having sex.. I did although have the support of someone I been dating. He drove me there and went in with me.. now THAT is bad ass.....how many guys do that?? How many guys stick around for this wacky "single summer" four months no sex rule.. I surely have no idea.

I still have my feelings and heart guarded. I feel secure about being alone and have learned a lot about who I am ...
Being so busy all the time has made me unavailable for anything serious anyways.

Still havent had sex, still havent committed to any relationships.
and now.... I am scared to death of anything intimate ... I am going to be so smart about everything I do, as much of a loose cannon I can be....;)

Love Dottie

I am happy I went today though. What a relief ...