Day 24 for tough as DIAMONDS

So ... Never in my life have I had more offers for dates or go out for a "drink"....

It is what I like to do lately.. I love to go out, go to shows and have some drinks! I went from a controlling mom to a controlling boyfriend to being a full time Mom..
Of course I am taking advantage of it!

But I have to learn to change how honest and upfront I am to advances..

I like to compliment people when its honest! I like to flirt... I like to be open with what is going on in my life or how I feel... I hate being vague or not understanding what people mean/feel.. What is the point??

I am craving intimacy though... every time I hug a guy I can feel their body against mine it drives me INSANE! Its not been that long .. day 24 ?! how ridiculous.... Maybe I have an addiction? I had a sexual dream last night about making out with someone . Really slow and soft and open mouth it was perfect and turned me on so much ......AHHHHH...

I just miss hanging out around guys... I stay away because its too hard to find ones I can trust to respect my boundaries or tempt me..

I need some guy friends god damnit!!

love

Dottie